ugh.

I found this Christian message board. I intended to post on there simply to get some ideas as to the Christian mindset, and make sure I understand it like I think I do. That way I am not talking out of my ass here (even though, I am aware I am not) I did not intend on making jerkish, ill-mannered comments. Instead, I was going to be very nice. Well, of course there was a post on evolution, and someone actually said that evolution is “There was nothing, then there’s a soda can.” This was far too ridiculous to leave untouched. Someone on the board who wasn’t a Christian made a comment along the lines of “Gee, good comparison.” I made one explaining what evolution actually is, in full detail. I also posted several comments on other peoples threads, completely nice.

I get an e-mail this afternoon when I go to see if anyone replied. I am informed the non-religious are only allowed to post in two areas on the board, and mine have been deleted. Even though, there was another non-religious person who posted on that same thread. Even though they had no problem with my other posts, they said that the message was in regards to that post.

Wow…way to hide your flock of sheep for fear of finding out there is something other than a god. Way to be scared. I don’t get it, these people are so afraid. They know deep down it’s fake. They deny it. I know from experience that they question it, that they are aware it doesn’t make sense, they know this. I don’t get it.

Melissa told me last night that I’ll never get it. That she’s been trying for years to figure them out, but there is no logic to it. She told me I’m only going to get frustrated. I know she’s right because it’s starting to happen. I know I need to stop, and just live my non-Christian life in peace.

Everyday another piece of “god” breaks off my body, and my mind. What now?

~ by ienjoypi on April 28, 2008.